2020: Grace, Beauty, Trials & Tribulations

Well I write a little blurb about my year pretty much ever since my Divorce in 2017 but I like it bc it’s a good way to look back and see how I grew, where I was at, and it provides a pretty good picture of my own strengths and weaknesses.

I’m not really sure where to start with 2020. It’s been blessed but also cursed. When you look at the bigger picture it’s been a horrible year for society… COVID, racism, violence, hatred, and just pure separation of all people in EVERY aspect. It’s hard to watch, but what I always tell the patients that I work with at the psychiatric hospital chaos is only an indicator that something isn’t working out in your life, so thank God you got here because now we know we have to address it here going forward, doesn’t mean it’s going to be easy but we’ve at least identified a problem so we can start to see our way out, I hope that’s what 2021 means for the United States. Love is so important and too often it’s thrown on the back burner, but really it’s all we have at the end of the day. Our material possessions are just things if we don’t hold and love one another. Things will get better though, we must not let go of our faith and hope for the future.

So 2020 for me personally has been good and bad. While many people lost their jobs and were laid off this year, I have been able to thrive financially and I’ve been blessed. John Matthew and I were able to move into a new beautiful home that we love. We have both met new beautiful friends that we are grateful for.

It also brought a lot of heart break in many different ways. We lost our Dexter dog this year 😢 John Matthew and I have dealt with a lot of loss in our previous lives and some of those hurt broken feelings crept up on us this past year, but love trumps all and we prevail and move forward only to find ourselves stronger.

We both had COVID over thanksgiving but we both overcame it, we are lucky as many people have not.

I miss my parents, I haven’t seen them this year. I was lucky to have seen my brother and sister this past summer! We had fun celebrating Mary’s 21 birthday 🥳

So 2020 has had its ups and downs but it can always be worse. My 10 years experience as a social worker has taught me a lot about life and I continue to grow in that knowledge working at Willis Knighton Hospital. I meet with some of the most broken people you’ve ever met. People who meet adversity in every corner of their life and their capacity to remain faithful amazes me daily. They are my inspiration and what keeps me going. Their resilience is strong and yours can be too.

So if I had to summarize how I feel about 2020 as a whole, although it’s brought trials and tribulations, Turmoil always seems to highlight what at the end of the day actually matters and that is where grace and beauty shine through and it shows me my faith. At the end of the day that’s all we have is our faith and love in our almighty God ❤️ May you continue to walk by our side in 2021